I am feeling quiet today. And a little besieged. All the news lately is HEAVY and it is just making life seem a bit weightier than normal. I am managing fine and am not having any relapses, but I just am trying to be mindful through it all. The news seems full of things that make me want to turn to cookies as a means of escape. The reality is that cookies, chips, cheese, etc are my own form of stress relief. It is a challenge not to turn to them and wallow for a while. But I know that it is not about cookies and I am trying to sit with the fact that it is ok to be sad and NOT eat cookies.
I followed the plan all week, at most of my weekly points and none of my Activity Points. The result? Up.
74.2 lbs Lost to Date
o.4 pounds doesn’t have me terribly worried. It could be hormones, it could be water intake, it could be what I wore. In the end it is still a gain and I am making a change because of it. I have debated for a few weeks about going down from the exclusive breastfeeding extra points (14) to the partial breastfeeding extra points (7). I am still BFing and pumping, but as E2 eats more and more solids I think the extra 7 points may hinder my weight loss. So I am pulling the plug and giving myself 7 extra instead of 14. I hope it won’t hurt my supply but I think it is time.
Of course this is a bummer because I made this switch in my app after lunch and now I have 8 PP left for dinner, so I imagine I will be using some weekly points tonight. It is going to be hard to drop that many points cold turkey but I think it is time. We’ll see what the scale says next week! I am hopeful.
In the meantime, I am going to have some extra baby cuddles, put my head down and get some work done, turn off the news and go for some training walks. Even though I gained I know I had a strong week and I am sure that my body will catch up to what my brain is doing sooner or later. (Hopefully sooner!)