Sometimes you make good choices and you feel good about them. Other times, those same good choices just piss you off. That was me today. I’ve been absent because the family left EARLY on Saturday morning (read up at 3am early) to fly to Virgina to my BIL and SIL’s house. My niece was been baptized on Sunday morning and I am very grateful not to miss it. However what followed was 3 long and crazy days which included food options I was not entirely in control of and lots of travel, with two small children.
And I did well. I have one weekly point remaining and tracked everything I ate. I had some cake, but also didn’t have some other things that would have inflated my points. I had some pizza and also some salad. It was almost a picture perfect way of celebrating with family and managing to stay on plan.
So why am I so grouchy about it?
Is it because I am tired and I really really want to find an excuse to eat anything I want?
Is it because I still feel there is such a long way to go and am a little shell shocked by the full body image in the hotel mirror?
Is it because sometimes we just aren’t in the mood?
Is it because E2 had a rough night and I am very very tired? (a strong contender)
Is it because I resent that I can’t just eat whatever sounds good at family events like everyone else seems to?
All of the above?
I suppose it is a good lesson. Sometimes the good choice is not the choice you want to make. It might make you feel like you were virtuous but you still feel a bit left out. Sometimes the voices and habits we are breaking “yell” more loudly at us. Sometimes mood, convenience, and desire make good choices seem unappealing. Amazingly, you can still make the good choices.
I feel grouchy about it today, but chances are after a good night sleep I will be happy that I stuck to the plan. Right now however, it is a good thing we need to go to the store badly so there is no food in the house.
Today I walked past a Five Guys, a Cheese-steak place, Chick Fil-A, and countless other options to go get a hummus wrap for myself and a smoothie for E1. I then calculated the WW points based on the posted nutrition information and walked with my wrap back to the gate past all the same places. The wrap was delicious, but it wasn’t Five Guys. But even if I am grouchy about it, I still made the good choice. (It goes without saying that on WW I could have had Five Guys, but I would need to track it and it would have put me over on my weeklies)
It still counts. Even when I am reluctant it still counts.
But I better get some sleep so I am not so grouchy about it tomorrow.