Weigh In Week 58

Last week I did everything I was supposed to and gained weight.  This week I had a virtually identical week point wise….and lost weight.  Sometimes you just cannot predict what your body is going to do.  Not only that, but I had a nice loss and a at a new “low” for my weight.

-4.4 Pounds

98.6 lbs Lost on WW to Date

(133 lbs total)

Yeah, I’ll take that.

I am glad I had a good result this week because this week is CRAZY and I really needed the lift and the motivation to keep on tracking and fighting for good choices when there is temptation and packed days this week.  (For example, today I drove a 3 hr round trip to sit with someone in the hospital for 2 hrs, tomorrow is E2’s tube surgery AND E1’s birthday, not to mention work and all of that “normal” busy stuff I have).

Oh and did I mention there will be cake around with E1’s birthday?  Don’t worry, I have a plan.  Hopefully that will be another blog post, but I make no promises.

So it was good to see a good loss.  And because I haven’t done this in a while:

ww week 58

In a week of craziness, a little success feels good.

I’m *NOT* going to Disney World

I know about 8 people (minimum) headed down to Disney World this weekend for the Princess Race weekend.  Among them are my SIL and BIL, my niece (doing the Diaper Dash), and several of my favorite Fitbloggin’ friends.  They have been packing up and traveling today, on their way to the happiest place on earth.

I am not going.  My knee injury this fall made it apparent that I never could have maintained a training schedule to get in half marathon shape, especially with an injury.  As it turns out, it was probably for the best as E2’s constant ear infections and general winter illnesses are hard on the pocketbook and the PTO.  (In other news E2 was cleared to get tubes today, which I am immensely glad for as she currently has ear infection 10 in 9 months.)

Still, I feel a pang of regret that I am not joining friends and family and for not accomplishing what I set out to do.  Plus, you know I am not in Florida when it is -5 degrees in MN.  I am also not celebrating E1’s birthday in Disney like I’d thought (thank goodness we hadn’t told them about those plans).

I am grateful that my knee is feeling as good as it has been these last few months.  PT did wonders for it and it feels strong, but I still don’t think I’m going to be running any time soon.  I do regret that Disney never got back to me when I inquired about delaying my race or transferring it to someone else.  I don’t love the idea of the race ticket going to waste.

It is what it is, and while part of me knows I could never have done it safely this year, another part of me longs to be celebrating a challenge accepted and completed.  And what better place to celebrate than with Mickey Mouse!

Weigh In Week 57

I am annoyed.

A.N.N.O.Y.E.D.

Why?  Because I did everything “right” this week.  I tracked, I ate mostly “real” healthy food.  I focused on veggies and water intake. I did not eat all my weekly points and tracked every bite.  I worked hard.  And….I gained.

+0.2 Pounds

94.2 lbs Lost on WW to Date

Yes, I know I will likely see it next week.  Yes, I know it could easily be salt, or the antibiotic I am on for a sinus infection.  It could be I mis-estimated somewhere along the lines. Besides .2 is virtually the same as last week.  But it is annoying.  The fact is that it is harder now than it was at the beginning.  My results are not so noticeable and my body shifts more easily with ups and downs.  I am proud of myself for having a good week and that ought to be enough, but it is disheartening not to see results on the scale, especially when I had been guess that I’d easily lose a pound or more given this week’s efforts.

It is one thing to cheat and gain, but it is a different level of frustration to do things properly and still gain.

And it has in general put me in a funk for the day.  Random comments are irking me, both in person and on the internet and I am nearly certain that everyone hates me but never says so.

It is amazing how one little number can have so much impact on a day.  And silly too.  It is just a number, one data point in a multitude on this journey, but that point can still be a source of sadness or frustration.

In a way I feel like my body broke a contract with me, I did what I am suppose to now it is supposed to answer in kind.  Dumb? Perhaps but it is honest.

I keep going because it isn’t worth giving up over, but I remain annoyed today.

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