The days when losing weight and living a healthy lifestyle is hard is most often the days when the rest of life seems hard too. I have been working on VBS for days (weeks) and just the weekend stands between me and another great week of Vacation Bible School. Every year at this time I have a freakout – how will I get it all done?! That freakout leads in turn to doubts about the rest of my life. The basic “you suck” mix tape in my mind. Combined with the fact that I am eating a lot of fast food, at odd hours, it is a bad combo. I managed to have three meals today (only 2 yesterday – one at 10pm), but they all involved food from local establishments. Yes I tracked them, and yes, I used some weekly points. Honestly all I really want is a gallon of raspberries or a good salad, but that wasn’t in the cards today. (Yes #justtrollin people I know I could have prepared with better choices. I know.)
The fact that those read like excuses just adds to the soundtrack in my mind. Doubt when allowed to run rampant has a way of snowballing.
When this happens I try take a step back – to read a book for 20 minutes, or to look at all the things I do well. For example, I have tracked everything I have eaten. I am not negative for the week and I have more opportunities for good choices tomorrow. I did not eat ALL THE PIZZA that I had for my set crews today – opting for a slightly healthier option. In addition, I am working hard to stay hydrated. I have my volunteers in place and know that despite several busy days ahead VBS will work out fine. It always does. I have been FAR more behind than this some years and it all miraculously comes together.
I am not certain if I have a point or if I am just blogging to clear my head – but if I did have a point for myself it would be “remember the big picture.” These days will pass. Vacation Bible School will still happen whether everything is perfect to my eyes. 200+ kids and volunteers will have a fun week. And in the end I will be able to take a deep breath and say it was fun. It is always fun. So I will keep tracking, keep trying, and hopefully keep things in perspective.
I will try to write a new soundtrack for my brain.
What resets your own internal soundtrack when things seem challenging?