PriorFatGirl is a community of writers who share their healthiness journey with you, our friends. Currently, posts on the main page are written by Liz who is fighting through her healthiness journey (and winning!) You can read other priorfatgirl journeys by clicking on the “Other priorfatgirl’s” drop down from the top menu.

Through the ups and downs of life, the scale, and emotions, we share our stories as a form of therapy for us, and as a way to help remove stigmas associated with trying to live up to social expectations of being perfect. We will not ever promise to be perfect, but we will promise to share candidly our journeys of learning how to be healthy in an unhealthy world, sugar coating not included.


Ways to shut up a blogger for 3 weeks

  1. Get a 2-week flu-like virus complete with fainting and ER trip.
  2. Have your children continue to trade germs necessitating staying home regularly each week and working extra on the weekends to catch up.
  3. Having someone IRL mention that maybe you should tone it down online because “…you are making people uncomfortable.”

Honestly, I am just so over it.  I am over illnesses and constantly working to play catch up at work and at home.  I am tired of getting calls to come pick up my kid who has something else, or then getting it myself.  Even last night I went to bed at 7pm and managed to sleep off whatever bug was threatening but it has been a very hard fall for the Goat family.

I am also really taken aback by my friend’s comment.  I am a peacekeeper, I don’t like to make people uncomfortable, and it makes me question what I should be writing here.  But I also want to be honest and life is not always unicorns and rainbows.  I’m having a hard time being upbeat and finding a positive spin on things right now and my negative self-talk is at record high levels.

I’ve made some interesting breakthroughs in therapy about my relationship with food and it is causing me to set up some priority shifts, but until those happen it is hard to share.  I’ve been so sick lately that exercise has been non-existent and my eating has been all over the place because of the craziness too.  I just feel beat down and gross.

So I hope to be back with good news and hope and grace and progress.  But right now, I am putting words down to let you know that I am still here.  Still here is as good as I’ve got.

Whole 30: Days 1-10

I promise that I meant to get this posted on Monday night – after my first full week of Whole30 – but my body had other plans. I ended up with tonsillitis and was out of commission for most of the week. I’m finally on the mend and so happy to have some energy back!

The first 10 days of this Whole30 were overall, pretty okay. I got the sugar withdrawal headache after a couple of days, but it went away with a lot of water and a little ibuprofen. I had some major sweets cravings here and there but thank goodness those went away after eating a handful of grapes. One of the most important parts of Whole30 is to be prepared and thinking ahead has saved me! I had a meeting between breakfast and lunch so I took a Larabar and almonds with me which really saved the day.

There are times when my will has been tested and pushed me to the brink of tears. I know, that sounds soooo dramatic, but it’s the truth. We ordered Afghan kabob for dinner one night and I had chicken, lots of grilled vegetables, and a big salad. But holy cow, the amazing naan had me so close to my breaking point that my teeth hurt because I wanted some so bad. Isn’t that crazy? I don’t think I’ve ever had a craving quite so intense before and it was pretty killer. But I knew I would be mad at myself if I gave in, so I ate my food and did not take one bite of the bread. It was a close call but I came out victorious!

I was also pretty grumpy about Whole30 when I had tonsillitis. I knew I was sick when the thought of both coffee and food repulsed me, so I drank a lot of hot tea and beef broth. Once I started feeling better, I ate bananas and scrambled eggs cooked in ghee. Yesterday was the first day that coffee sounded good again, but I’m still not drinking as much of it as pre-Whole30. I have one – maybe two – cups a day. I put about a TBL of organic coconut oil in my coffee and then use my immersion blender to froth it up – and it’s not bad at all. I was this close to throwing in the towel this week when I was still sick and just so tired. I was tired of being sick, tired of being tired, and tired of not being able to have the comfort foods I really wanted. But yesterday afternoon, my energy started to return and has been increasing steadily. I am so happy that I did not quit!

One of the things I’m most excited about is not having any diet soda for over 10 days! Like I said before, I was drinking a lot of it, so going cold turkey was the best thing for me and my health. I have no plans on drinking it again after Whole30 which feels great to know already. I don’t really miss it! I’ve been drinking only coffee, water, and unsweetened iced tea.

Today is day 12 so I’ll have another update for you next week. 12 down…18 to go!

Taming the Stressugar Monster

I feel like I’ve finally been granted permission to come out of my work cave (which is really just my basement). The past few weeks at work have been quite a roller coaster. Most days, my schedule went something like this:

  • 5am – wake up and work
  • 6:30 – wake up kids
  • 7:15 – leave for daycare
  • 8-9am – boxing (M/W/F, except for last week when I didn’t go)
  • Work until 5pm
  • 5:15-8pm – dinner, bath for kids, bedtime
  • 8pm to 10pm-12am – Work

My husband also had to go on a few business trips during the craziness but it was probably a good thing. I didn’t feel guilty when I had to get on another conference call at 8pm or go to bed at midnight so him being gone actually helped my stress a little! The good news is that it was temporary, a great learning experience, and I survived. The bad news is that I gained back all the weight I had previously lost (to the ounce). I was so tired and busy and stressed out that caring about taking care of myself unfortunately fell to the back burner.

My sister got married last weekend so we were in the car for 6+ hours on Friday and Sunday with Saturday being the wedding day with lots of chaos and wedding fun. I felt horrible pretty much the whole time which I’m sure was due to eating crap food and not exercising last week. My mental state was just as bad because I was self conscious and unhappy in my own skin. I was miserable.

On the way home, we stopped at the Lindt Factory Outlet store and bought some truffles. I am not kidding that I ate at least five when we got home. They were delicious and wonderful but let’s be real. They’re rich and pretty satisfying so one or even two should have been enough. And in the back of my mind, I knew that…but I still ate a few more.

I recognized that voice in my head and I knew I had to do something but wasn’t sure what. You may remember from posts before – but I am the type of person who needs a plan. I wanted to focus again on healthy, whole foods and try to rid myself of the sugar monster and diet soda monster who seemed to live in my head. Soooo…


I did one full Whole30 way back when in 2012 and had great success. I felt awesome, I ran one of my best races, and lost some weight. Since then, I attempted to do another but failed miserably because my heart wasn’t in it and I just wasn’t ready. But now I feel like it’s time to try again. My biggest complaint from my first Whole30 and biggest excuse from my failed attempt was that it was too hard/time consuming to prep or have the right foods available. But hey guess what?!  I work from home so I really have no more excuses left. :)

So today is Whole30 Day 3 and I’m feeling great. I’ll post more about Whole30 in the coming days and weeks. I plan to stick it out no matter what. I know I can do it!