Moving past the fog of unhealthiness.

When I am unhealthy, I can often look back and recognize a fog. A mental fog that weighs me down so much, it becomes a physical attribute. I don’t necessarily notice it every minute of every day. But it’s there. Lingering.  A constant sluggish feeling that hovers over my life. Like I’m always playing catch-up. Moments experienced through a tinted filter. The opposite, when I’m in a really good place with my health, is a refreshing feeling. I feel light, quick to respond. Experiences are crisp and sharp. I feel free.

I want to be healthy for myself.
I want to be healthy for Francisco.
I want to be healthy for my marriage.

I want to be healthy. Healthy physically, mentally, spiritually and financially. I want to feel free in life; not weighed down by the fog of unhealthiness. I want to rise above the haze I often feel as a result of my unhealthiness.

I worked out 3 times last week and so far, 2 times this week. Sunday, I made it to the gym even though Carlos was out town (usually I would use this as an excuse to not workout.) I dropped Francisco off at the daycare and even though he hated it, I took the 30min for myself to sweat. This morning I also went. At 5am. Which meant Carlos got up with Francisco. Carlos is more of a night owl (I am the early bird) so I appreciate Carlos being willing to wake up and hang with Francisco.

2 times this week. Not as much as I’d like but I’m still taking it as progress. We are going back to Minneapolis tomorrow so I my goal will be to work out before a half-day of work which will get me to 3 times this week.  Although in the back of my mind, I still continue to crave getting up to 5 times a week.

I’m tracking my food. I’m focusing on being balanced and while I still need to work on decreasing my fat macro, I’m doing very well with not overdosing on processed carbs every day. My eating focus is eating balanced, real food. Not low calorie, not low fat, not some fad diet. Just balanced protein, healthy carbs and good fat.

It’s a slow uphill battle. Fighting toward healthiness when unhealthy habits seem to feed off each other. One decision in the morning can throw the rest of the day off kilter and seem absolutely impossible. Every day can start with the same good intentions but intentions don’t mean much if it isn’t followed up with action. 

Every day, the goal is to continue to move past the fog of unhealthiness. 


  1. So true about the fog. I am in there now and and need to find my way out of the haze. Life is better when I eat good food and exercise regularly.

  2. BJ Souders says:

    So well said. thank you!!

  3. Way to go girl! Slow and steady wins the race. You e got this! Hope you had / are having fun in Minneapolis.

  4. I totally agree on that! It’s like when I feel like my health is wonky, it’s a whole series of things. My budget is a mess, my house is a mess, I just feel unorganized in all aspects. The fog! That’s exactly what it is.

  5. Mel - your sis says:

    I love you!!! Hope this past week u were able to make it to the gym!!! Little goals accomplish bigger goals later! If I can do it I know u can!

  6. Go Jen Go. I believe in you. Continue to believe in yourself. One step at a time. Progress not perfection is the name of the game.

  7. Very very nice post!!! Do everything you can to make yourself healthy and happy:) So proud of you!!! Keep sharing your progress.

  8. Diana Newton says:

    Jen – I’m so happy to see you post, and a really good one too. I know you’re on the fence about posting, and said in your previous post that you had nothing left to say. This is NOT true. You’re a very talented writer and you write with your heart. You have a lot to say and you can help a lot of people, including yourself, by posting. They don’t have to be like the old days, long and detailed. They were fantastic, but pretty unrealistic for a young mother that has a job. Maybe shorter posts, like this one. Just telling us how you’re feeling and how you’re working towards your goal. It’s so good to hear from you, even a condensed version of what’s going on, is a breath of fresh hour. 🙂

  9. “Just balanced protein, healthy carbs and good fat” spot on… eat better not less, right?
    Congratulations for finding the inspiration and sharing it with us!

  10. Bunny Powers says:

    Jen, I’m starting my weight loss journey and would love to be a contributing blogger. Any plans for expanding the site with another prior fat girl potential?

  11. I just read some of your blog for the first time, I feel like we have so much in common. I lost a ton of weight about 4 years ago and now I am back to the heaviest I have ever been. It’s so tough to start all over again. I too am now a Mum of a 3 year old and have put on 70lbs over the last two years. I’m thinking of startingg my own blog too. Wish you all the best with your journey, I look forward to reading more!

  12. I really agree with you. You may go ahead just me. I lose weight before 4 month ago like you.

  13. Hi Jen,

    I am hoping you can help me. I am a casting producer working on a documentary series called, ‘Hitched.’ We are seeking engaged couples who plan to get married in September and October this year. We want to authentically capture couples all throughout the United States. I wanted to reach out to you in regards to this because I would like to document a couple or individual who may be losing weight for their wedding. We want to document their journey leading up to their wedding day.

    The Emmy nominated production company Shed Media (Long Lost Family, Child Genius and many more) is teaming up with a major network for this exciting new series. Participants will receive $10,000. We are aiming to begin filming in June 2017. This is the very first season of the show and we are very excited to see how everything turns out. I can assure you this is not out to make anyone look bad. We want to document the journey leading up to the alter.
    We would love to hear their love story and potentially showcase their romantic journey and all its joys and challenges. I would like the opportunity to chat more with you or if you know of any couples engaged and want more information, I am happy to speak with them directly.


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