Well, we made it through the holidays. We are on the other side of the new year and 2016 is before us. People are setting (and already breaking) resolutions left and right, Christmas trees are left on curbs and everyone is back to school and work. There is a vague sense of holiday hangover around, not a literal one necessarily, but a sense of being both glad in the normalcy and dismayed by the stretch of winter that lies ahead of us.
The Goat family holidays were good. There was time with some family, though we missed heading to Wisconsin to see my side of the family – there was just not enough time off. Our kids were spoiled rotten of course, by Santa and grandparents and aunts and uncles. Though we don’t spend a lot, a bunch of family members conspired to get E1 just what he wanted – which involved a new video game system too. It took a team effort but the look on his face Christmas morning was priceless.
I love to give gifts at Christmas time, but I do like receiving them too. Beyond the great gifts from my family (Dr. Who legos, clothes $$, books, etc), were a few unexpected treasures from unexpected places that related to this weight journey that I am one. I wanted to share those with you.
- Smaller Size Bigger Life – early in November I got an email from Heather, a dietician who stumbled upon Prior Fat Girl and read about my struggles with binge eating and my relationship with food. As it turned out, she has been there herself in the past, struggling with eating addiction, eating disorders and excess weight. My story touched her and she reached out to me and offered me a scholarship into the program. This was not a blog deal, but a gift from a stranger who related to my story and offered a way of helping stem the tide and turn the ship. The program opened in January and I have been slowly working through the first steps which begin in the mental realm. I confess I am often slow at it due to some fear of failing at this again, but the generosity of the gift and her confidence that I can and will succeed in mental and physical health with food and weight give me such a sense of hope.
- Reiki with Margo from Fitbloggin – a friend from Fitbloggin, Nacho Mama, is licensed in Reiki and a unique version that specializes in long-distance Reiki. Reiki is a form of healing that deals with healing energy. Honestly it sounds a little weird but it is a compelling concept and I have seen several Christian practitioners of it during my time as well. This distance Reiki was new to me as I didn’t know it was happening at the time but Margo provided a transcript of what she sensed and gathered during her time in communication with…me? It sounds so weird, but what I got was uniquely personal, very much me, and definitely related to my inner voices around my own struggles. It was so spot on and specific in places that it made me shocked. It was an unexpected gift to see myself and to “hear” myself from that point of view. It is hard to say but it provided a sense of perspective I was missing.
I started this post at the beginning of the year and it is now the last day of January. Life continues to be busy but the scale creeps its way downward rather than upward. There is no great weekly numbers, but there is progress and that is a gift in and of itself. Slow is ok so long as I am healthy in body, mind and spirit as I do it. So I carry on.