This would be a “facing the music” post. When I go off plan, I REALLY go off plan. It gets ugly very quickly, despite the fact that I still am eating lots of “good” foods, I just eat way too much. And then I pay the price. This is the price:
-61 lbs Lost to Date
It is bad. I know it is bad and I have to really work on not just getting back on track but getting back to a point of consistency. The summer was so up and down that my routine is all out of whack. The reality is that I have given into a sense of “deserving” to indulge, and combined with the stress and random scheduling that comes with summer it isn’t good.
I’ve gone over my plan to get back on track yesterday, and of course I promptly got off track again thanks to an awful headache that drove me to food, to skip the gym and to go to bed at 7:30 at night. The headache is still here today and at this point I wonder if it is a sinus infection or just the food leeching toxins back into my system.
Either way, I am not giving up. I know I can’t, so I’m going forward with the plan and will get myself there even if it takes a while. I am oddly excited to be at this low though. I purchased the new Weight Watcher’s Active Link today and it will help me better track my activity. I’m planning to switch things up to what was working last spring: diligent tracking, less eating out, smaller portions. In a way I am feeling like I am starting over today and I’d rather start over with a 10 pound gain than a 30 pound gain. I also think I’m going to be posting pictures of my food here more often. It is time to stop being embarrassed about eating and really make eating be about fueling my body.
But I wish it didn’t take a gain to remind me that. And I wish this blasted headache would go away.