This would be a “facing the music” post. When I go off plan, I REALLY go off plan. It gets ugly very quickly, despite the fact that I still am eating lots of “good” foods, I just eat way too much. And then I pay the price. This is the price:
+9.4 Pounds
-61 lbs Lost to Date
It is bad. I know it is bad and I have to really work on not just getting back on track but getting back to a point of consistency. The summer was so up and down that my routine is all out of whack. The reality is that I have given into a sense of “deserving” to indulge, and combined with the stress and random scheduling that comes with summer it isn’t good.
I’ve gone over my plan to get back on track yesterday, and of course I promptly got off track again thanks to an awful headache that drove me to food, to skip the gym and to go to bed at 7:30 at night. The headache is still here today and at this point I wonder if it is a sinus infection or just the food leeching toxins back into my system.
Either way, I am not giving up. I know I can’t, so I’m going forward with the plan and will get myself there even if it takes a while. I am oddly excited to be at this low though. I purchased the new Weight Watcher’s Active Link today and it will help me better track my activity. I’m planning to switch things up to what was working last spring: diligent tracking, less eating out, smaller portions. In a way I am feeling like I am starting over today and I’d rather start over with a 10 pound gain than a 30 pound gain. I also think I’m going to be posting pictures of my food here more often. It is time to stop being embarrassed about eating and really make eating be about fueling my body.
But I wish it didn’t take a gain to remind me that. And I wish this blasted headache would go away.
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I’d bet money that the headache is food-related. Whenever I detox a little I always have cold-like symptoms. Of course, when I have a cold, the first thing I turn to is ice cream, and that doesn’t help the detox. Sometimes you just have to go to bed early and sleep it off as best you can. Treat it as an illness.
Keep in mind, too, that this up and down in weight loss is bound to happen. Good job for nipping it in the bud so quickly! Keep up the good work!
Keep going Liz. It is a set back, but look how far you’ve come! Your body maybe trying to tell you something with this headache, so remember that there isn’t a deadline with weight loss. It’s one day at a time.
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I agree with the above, completly.
Maybe going back to the beginning would help a little too. Remember how you thought your way through choices/temptations/planning when you were first super motivated.
Look at your meal planning brand new too. If you don’t love what you’ve been doing, find new choices you DO love. Might help stave off temptation a bit.
This isn’t over. You are not defeated.
Now kick some hiney.
Hi Liz, don’t punish yourself; slumps happen! I find that it’s more reasonable to expect some occasional backtracking during any habit-changing process. That way I’m not hard on myself or overly concerned when it happens. No biggie! It’s just that the change in momentum is temporarily disorienting. Take some time to reassess, get the river flowing in the right direction again, and be gentle with yourself. You’ll be one happy clam.
This summer You have recognized your failures and celebrated you’re successes. As discussed on f2fpack’s Facebook yesterday, we’ve all had a rough summer but we are here to help one another have a successful fall. You are not alone. This is a journey that we all share. **hugs**
You are so brave and strong. Losing weight and fighting this battle publicly is not easy. Admitting a setback is also so difficult but you’re persevering and moving forward. Is there anything I can do to help? Do you want to check in with each other a couple of times a week? Let me know! You’re not alone. <3
Thank you do much for sharing! I to have had a struggle the last couple weeks and have been shaking my head and wondering, “why is this so hard for me?” I’m happy to be getting healthy, but I wonder how much I self sabatoge too. Thanks for letting me know I’m not the only one!
My pastor has a great line for exactly where you are:
“Every set BACK is a set UP for a COMEBACK!!”
I LOVE this!!!
I just wanted to say that I love how honest you are about your weight loss and gains. As a blogger, I really struggle with posting my gains for all to read. However, I find it so much more relatable to read stories about people who not only have success, but also slip at times too. It happens to all of us and I know that you will get back into your groove
The thing is though is that this is how weight loss really is! Its not a beautiful flowery path without obstacles and things that make you trip and fall…….you do such a great job of KEEPING IT REAL! I need to lose a total of 35-40lbs to reach my goal. This has been battle for as long as I can remember….I lose and gain the same 30 lbs over and over again. It doesn’t matter if its 130lbs or 30 lbs—its the same inner battle and struggle. I totally get what you are saying–you earlier post about the comparing game–OMG–you put into words so pefectly what I actually do…..I have never commented before but I read every day. I too find you sooo relatable and that is why I keep coming back to read your posts! Keep on going, and keep being real!
You are very brave…I haven’t been to a meeting in over a month and haven’t stepped on the scale either….I am terrified at what is there. I wish I had your bravery.
Great attitude. We will win this battle!!
Hang in there, girl…just think of how far you’ve come! You are strong and beautiful and AMAZING…not to mention, inspirational!
Hope you feel better very soon!
You know, I haven’t been reading my favorite blogs over the past couple months, and while I admit that, I should also add that I haven’t been counting points/calories during the same time period. I can sit here and come up with the excuses that come with life’s demands, or I can sit here and say that I’m in the same boat as you. I find you incredibly inspiring and this is exactly what I needed to read on my first day back.