There is so much to blog about, but I’m not sure where to begin.  I could tell you about Jen’s wedding (She was beautiful and the whole night was wonderful!), or the dress drama to get to Jen’s wedding in the first place.  Or I could blog about my birthday and how I feel turning 33 and looking at last year and what I want of this year.  I could blog about potty training and how I hate that process, but it seems similar to weight loss.  I could blog about how busy the next few weeks are going to be and how I am scared of all that I have to balance.

All of that is there, but it isn’t what is most pressing to me.

What is most pressing to me is stopping the freefall that I find myself in this week.  It didn’t happen quickly, and many of meals have been healthy, but I have been indulgent this week.  And indulgent in a way that I don’t feel in control of the situation any more.  I haven’t been able to stop at 1 of something, but have been finishing bags.  I have been making excuses not to track food, which leads to mindless eating.  I have been using events as excuses – Jen’s wedding, my birthday – to eat whatever it is I want.

It has been this theme for short spurts all this summer.  A good week or two and then some stress or event allows me to mentally give myself permission to indulge.  But, I can’t lose weight that way, or rather I will keep losing and gaining the same weight that way.  I fully expect a gain tomorrow, a fact that led me to McDonald’s drive thru for breakfast this morning – a sausage biscuit, sausage mcmuffin and hash browns?  Yes, Please!  (Ugh, that sounds disgusting typing it, but it slide right down on the drive in this morning).

So I am cutting my loses and going back to some basics.  I thought I would share with you all the steps that I am going to take right this second to get back on track.  Maybe you need to get back on track, or maybe it will just be enough for me to stay true to my word until the indulgence madness subsides.

Liz’s Steps to getting back on track.

1.  Track your food, no matter how ugly it is.  In fact go back and track as much as you can remember from the past week. – I don’t care if you are tracking calories, weight watcher points, carbs or just keeping the food diary.  Track it.

2.  Forgive yourself.  It happens.  No beating yourself up, let the past be the past (easier said than done I know).

3. Plan your next workout – for me it is my date with the gym at 5:30 tonight.

4. Go to weigh in the morning.

5. Plan your meals for tomorrow while you are resetting yourself today.

For myself I am adding three more components that are crucial to my own success:

1. No more eating out for breakfast or lunch with only lunch date exceptions

2. No more coffee drinks – it is too easy to get breakfast along the way for me.

3. No more eating Activity Points – allowing myself to do that allows me to bring in higher point foods, which make me crave more higher point foods.

I am not content to regain the 70 pounds I’ve lost.  I’m not content to fluctuate back and forth for the next months.  I want to hit 100 lbs lost by the end of this year.  And I am going to do it.  Summer is over, starting now.  Let’s get to work.  Who’s with me?


  1. For me the summer is always the worst. I get lazy. I don’t want to exercise or eat right. Some of it has to do with this darn Florida heat/thunderstorms which makes a lot of things miserable. But that is also an excuse to be lazy. Blah – summertime.

    I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about goals and priorities and how I want to refocus them by season. And that is a blog in the making.

    You’ll smash the 100 pounds lost, and I know you will do it this year because you’ve been headstrong since you started this journey!

  2. Aw I know the feeling. I have managed to drag myself back on the diet wagon today after a bit of a blip. I don’t know why I do it or why I let it happen as it is inevitable that the minute I allow myself to slip up and eat rubbish its only a downward slippery, very steep slope that is harder to climb back up than when I was on the flat! The moving on and getting back on track is the hardest habit to build I think and I envy people who can do it naturally in a regular eating way without the internal arguments and horrific guilt! Absolute best of luck to you, I have complete confidence in you.

  3. Forgive yourself. That’s the hardest part. Starting the morning with a bad weigh-in, looking at numbers you swore you’d never see again, and not letting it get to you. I have a hard time seeing this as a process, in which there are ups and downs, and it’s ok. For me, either I’m losing –and consequently, I’m happy–, or I’m gaining –and therefore I feel like crap–. There’s no big picture, it’s black or white. I need to change that, because it’s that guilt and that feeling low after a few bad decisions that ultimately leads me to the Mc Donald’s drive-thru.

  4. I think you should add:

    4. Visit SIL and BIL for some relaxation and play time with puppies.

    OK, so that’s just wishful thinking. I think your plans and goals are well-thought-out. I know they’ll work for you, and I look forward to your updates.

  5. You totally got this! Sounds like a great list 🙂 and I’m with you !

  6. Danielle T. says:

    I read your prior fat girl blog regularly and I notice that you have a very unhealthy relationship with food. I’m 21 and I’ve recently lost about 60 pounds going from 175-180 to around 120-125 from February 2012 til now. I’m only 5’2 so that’s a normal range for me. I struggled with food addiction my whole life. A thing that really helped me was reading The Omnivore’s Dilemma, and In Defense of Food by Michael Pollan, and also watching the documentaries Food Inc. and Forks Over Knives. They really opened my eyes and inspired me to eat a lot healthier for reasons beyond losing weight. When you make your food choices more about being responsible with the environment, the economy, and voting for what kind of world you want to support, rather than just about losing weight, you’ll see that health and happiness just start to happen on their own. And you’ll realize just how icky processed foods and fast foods really are because the entire fast food and processed food industry is counting on their consumers not knowing and not caring what they’re giving us. I completely believe in eating clean and eating whole foods as much as possible for a long and healthy life. It’s all about learning that it’s about eating to live, not living to eat and that kind of relationship with food is what will ultimately put you in the best shape of your life emotionally and physically. And I think that’s the kind of thing you want especially for Little Goat 🙂

  7. We went camping this weekend. I did not track. I ate like I’m 120 pounds and no on Weight Watchers.
    But you know what? I went right back on track on yesterday, went to body jam last night and most importantly weighed in this morning to see the damage. Up 2.6. It stung but I deserved it. It’s back on track now though.
    You can do it!

  8. I’m struggling right now, too. I hit a weight on the scale I haven’t seen for more than 2 years. In fact, the last time I saw 170+ on the scale was May of 2010. 2 years ago, it was 162.6. 1 year ago, it was 158.2. This year, it’s 172.2. I hate the way my clothes fit. I feel unattractive. And I am the only one who controls this. I tracked what I ate and felt good for the 1st 5 weeks of duathlon training following the marathon, but then the fibro symptoms and some sort of a cold hit me, and I basically missed the second 5 weeks of my training. No training became no food tracking. No food tracking to more weight gain.

    I set forth 10 weeks ago to do a challenge to lose either 13.1 or 26.2 lbs over 13 weeks. I have gaind 9 lbs. It does a number on the self-esteem.

    But I went and did the duathlon on Sunday, and while I was slower than last year, I finished the race. It renewed my commitment – I have a 10K on Saturday and 5k or 5k on Monday. I have another duathlon on 9/22, and a half marathon on 9/30. I have races coming up and I owe it to myself to focus on fueling and training my body for these events.

    If I can’t do my planned training due to fibro flare ups? Walk the dog for 45 min to an hour. Just move my body somehow. I’m tracking my food on SparkPeople again. It made me choose a peach and cottage cheese and some bell peppers today for a snack instead of banana cream pie (I looked at the pie and noticed how it jiggled on the serving knife… the pie would only add to the jiggles on my body! Easy choice!).

    I needed to see this post of yours today. Thank you so much for the honesty. It really helps. You’re making all the right steps…. and there are plenty of us reconfirming our resolve and moving forward, right along with you.

  9. I’m right there with you girl. I’ve eaten like crap this week and I’m feeling it. My daughters 1st bday party was Sat and the leftovers are eating me alive. I’ve found this amazing concept of throwing food away. Why do I feel like I’m responsible to eat the leftovers? Luckily my husband took all of the leftover cake & ice cream to work. I have ZERO doubt in my mind that I would have eaten it all.

    I’m starting over…going for a run tonight and having a smoothie for dinner.

  10. A resounding YES from me. I’m with you. Getting back to basics is truly what works.

    I’ve had a similar summer, so I plan to have a similar fall with more losing than gaining.

    Thanks for the honest, yet encouraging post!!! Now I know (for real) I’m not alone, and I’m also not going back to 60 pounds heavier.

  11. Oh, I am right there with you. I have been doing this ALL summer too. Actually, since April. I lost about 20 lbs Jan-Apr, and now I have gained that all back, plus some. While losing and gaining about five pounds of that…hmmm…about 5 times. For realz?!? I love your plan of action and have been doing the same thing. WE CAN DO THIS!

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