Archives for July 2010

What if…

What if you got a phone call saying it was too late?

What if you got a phone calling saying that everything you have known has changed and that your entire life would be turned upside down. And that the rock in your life was no longer there for you to touch, feel, hug and love as you had previously done so.

That phone call would change your life. For the rest of your life, you would answer every phone call with hesitation. You would despise any activity that kept you away from your loved ones longer than an I love you would be remembered. That phone call would force your entire world into such an extreme paradigm shift that it would take months upon months for you to realize what happened. That phone call would take away your breath for months. And the minute you found your breath again is the minute you remembered the phone call. For the rest of your life, that phone call would be the exact reason that you are often and without warning, stopped dead in your track only to find yourself in a moment of utter and indescribable pain and in a world that is moving so fast that no one around you can help.

What if the most important person in your
life was taken away quicker than a breath?

Do you realize that is possible? Do you realize that in the time it took you to read my post, written through my tears, you could have called your loved one to say you appreciate them?

Don’t wait for a phone call to take your breath away. Don’t wait for a phone call to stop you in your tracks and turn your life upside down. Don’t wait for the moment when…it is too late. I am begging you to take my advice and call them. Smother them in your love. When they are gone, you will be glad you did.

Your continued thoughts & prayers are appreciated. In lieu of comments today, stop and shut your eyes. Think of what you would feel like if you got a call saying a loved one is gone. Then, open your eyes and realize you still have time. Take 2 minutes out of your “busy” day to call a loved one and tell them you appreciate them.

Barely making it through the day…

“I discovered I always have choices and sometimes it’s only a choice of attitude.” ~ Judith M. Knowlton

…soo sleepy today… 🙁  I need to wake up!

Other than the obvious sleepy-issue I’m having, today is going wonderfully – calories/food wise.

Adam and I so very badly NEED to go grocery shopping.  There is like, nothing to eat in our house since we were out of town last weekend.  Today for lunch… soup.  Haha  I love me some soup.. but in July!?  Eh.. it was good.. and only 120 calories.

Right this moment I’m sitting at 756 calories eaten today.  Leaving me between 635-835 for dinner.  Which I’m not sure yet what that will be….  Haha!

I don’t feel hungry, I don’t feel full, I’m just… content.  And I’m BORED OUT OF MY MIND.  See, normally, this would trigger me to eat, but I’m resisting.  I know I’m not hungry, so there is no need for food.  Ahhh, I wonder what it will be like to someday just eat like a normal person.  Ya know, not constantly thinking about food (I do), or calories (I do), but just to eat when I’m hungry, stop when I’m content (I don’t) – I just can’t wait for that day.  And I realize that could be in the very distant future, but I’ll continue to long for it.  Oh to not obsess over calories, I wonder what that’s like… someday, my friends, someday, I’ll know.  🙂

This weekend is not super busy, but a little.  Tomorrow morning I have personal training with my new trainer, Katelyn, whom I loooove.  She’s great.  She’s about my age, maybe a tad younger even, and obviously, she’s female, which I just feel like helps us to relate to each other better.  She pushes me.. but it’s different than when I was working out with the guys.  I really like her.  🙂

Saturday evening we have a dinner date over at our friends house.  I’m in charge of a pasta salad and dessert.  Not sure yet what to do about the salad (suggestions…?) but for dessert I’m pretty set on an angel food cake with berries and whipped cream.  Deeelish!  And better than brownies or something!  😉

Sunday, right and early, I have Boot Camp!  I’m excited… and not gonna lie… a little nervous.  I’m glad that Jen and Sheena will be there with me.. not to mention a pretty cool chick is leading the class, Mary from Fit this, Girl!  🙂  I’m pretty pumped up!

Sunday night, Adam and I may be treating my dad to dinner at Red Lobster (or Timberlodge/Out Back/ SOMEWHERE!) – it’s my dad’s choice.  I’m nervous about making healthy decision, but I think I’ll do OK if I just check out the menu before hand and stick to my guns… I can do this!  🙂

What do you guys have going on this weekend… anything fun and exciting planned?

Whatever you’re up to, I hope you have a great time – I’ll see ya next week! 🙂

A busy day.

Yesterday morning, I met Cindy, Mary and Erica for brunch. It was a nice way to spend the morning — I truly do not get enough girl talk in my life.

Mary, me and the birthday girl, Cindy!

Me, Cindy and Erica.

After brunch, I came home and went for a 2 mile run. It was slightly warmer outside so I didn’t go too fast – pretty sure I need to start running in the mornings. By the time I got home from my run, my body was tense. I don’t know how to explain it other than I felt tight everywhere. Not sore, not in pain, just sore. Legs, neck, arms, back, everywhere.

I was definitely looking forward to yoga! I started my free trial at Core Power Yoga yesterday. My first session I decided to do just the intro class. I was super excited for my class because Erin joined me — classes are always more fun when others come with!

Our yoga instructor, Barron. He makes me sweat...

I have to share a disclaimer that I know I have said before but it is worth repeating. Yoga wasn’t something I did before I lost weight. I have to admit, I would have been intimidated to do a class, especially at Core Power Yoga, prior to losing weight.

That said, I think sometimes, we create our own hesitations and anticiapte things to be worse than they really are. Had I given myself a little push and just did yoga, I would have realized how amazingly relaxing it was. Which was especially true for my first Core Power Yoga class. Barron was very relaxing, calm and because it was an intro class, really took the time to explain the moves. Sometimes he even asked us all to watch him as he demonstrated. And…in those tiny moments when everyone was doing a flow and I had no clue what to do next, I’d just as easily peek out of the corner of my eye and copy those around me.

Me and my sweatiness.

The relaxation was just what I needed. I left the studio feeling relaxed and calm. The full body tension I
walked into the studio with had been left at the doors.

I woke up this morning and realized that my day was unfortunately way too crazy to fit another class in. Which, I’m highly disappointed with. But…today is SUPPOSE to be a rest day so I am working on letting it be and not getting worked up about it.

I had two good yet overwhelming appointments today. One was for my internship. It went really good but the ladies I’m working with was super excited about my research and wants to take the project into another direction—which could be good for me if however I’m not sure if I can swing it based on time commitment.

The second appointment was with a lady who owns a healthy cooking/shopping company. We bounced around a lot of idea’s which left me excited but again, wondering how I could somehow better manage time. Since both appointments were back to back, I ended up feeling stressed and overwhelmed again…probably the exact time I need to go back to yoga, huh?! I don’t feel the full body tension like I did yesterday however can feel the stress in my neck & head which is where I typically feel it.

Instead, I need to run to the grocery store, post office and Target. My dad and a couple of sisters (and their family) are coming over for dinner tonight along with my aunt and uncle who are in town.

Chicken recipes

A couple of you have requested the recipes for the chicken I’ve eaten the past couple of days. I used the dump and stir method so bear with me on the exact measurements but here ya go!

Buffalo Chicken: 1.5 cups shredded chicken + 2 laughing cow cheese + as much Franks Red Hot as you can handle!

Taco Chicken: About 1.5 cups of shredded chicken + 1/3 packet of taco seasoning + 1/2 cup of corn + little bit of water to help stir it all together.


I want to blog tomorrow because I want write more about my feelings — I feel like the past couple of days all I have written about have been “I ate this and this and this” or “I did this and this and this” but really haven’t talked about the obvious. On that note, I really am just going to play it by ear. If I blog tomorrow, i blog. If not, I’m not going to throw a hissy fit.

I have a 2 mile run in the morning and then am going to do yoga. Tomorrow afternoon, we are going to get together as family and…just be.

Day 2: 1595

Day two of photographing my eats. Enjoy the pictures…

My 1st breakfast at 8:30am, a repeat: oatmeal w/ dried fruit.

Brunch at 11:00am, a Common Roots breakfast: tex-mex scramble w/ peppers, onions, broccoli & cheddar. ( ate 3/4 of it)

Pre-run fuel at 1:00pm

2pm chocolate snack minus much needed fiber.

3:30pm grub before yoga: Kashi crakers & taco chicken w/ corn & a diet coke.

8:30pm dinner: Amy's soup & pineapple and MORE Kashi crackers!

Initial thoughts: um…that soup doesn’t photograph very well. I was surprised, it was good.

Reflection thoughts: I felt like I didn’t eat enough food but the calories said otherwise. On my way home from yoga (more on that in the  next post), I stopped and got some canned pineapple because I desired.craved.needed fruit. I didn’t go to bed hungry so I’m not worried that I didn’t eat enough.  Tomorrow I’m going to the grocery store to get some key staples, one of which will be more fruits & veggies.

I’ll recap the rest of today in my morning post – I’m tired and gonna go read a magazine & fall asleep in bed. Night ya’ll!