No Regrets

The other day, I was reminded of my pre-weight loss lifestyle. If you were to ask me back then how I felt, I would have spent hours upon hours convincing you of how healthy I felt. Sure I had a little knee pain, sure I had trouble finding normal clothes, sure I had difficulties sleeping (sleep apnea) but I felt pretty healthy! I didn’t feel unhealthy, didn’t feel sluggish, weighed down or slow like so many others said overweight people felt.

Why would I? Because for Pete’s sake, I had gotten used to it! As I started to lose the weight, I didn’t have that magical feeling of having so much energy or feeling so much lighter. I didn’t wake up and feel great. It was much slower.

But now 2+ years later, I look back and realize how horrible I really did feel. How sluggish I was because of all the literal CRAP in my system. The CRAP that was stuck to my arteries, intestines, everywhere it could affix itself to. I realize how amazing it feels to be at a healthy weight.

Today, I am saddened that so many people are living life overweight and given the chance, would spend time convincing me they feel fine and healthy. Funny, sometimes we don’t know what we feel until we experience something else and can compare the two feelings.

I now can compare before & after. Many people ask me how I keep going and you want to know my answer? Because I remember what I felt like before.

I have had two strong days in a row. Eating healthy, paying attention to my thoughts, being active and true to myself. These days, the strong days, are when I need to stop and remind myself why I’m doing this – so on rough days, I can reread why its worth the fight.

As mentioned above, eating has been going well. Activity last week ended with an abrupt halt due to travel (only made it to gym 3x last week). This week, I’m shooting for 4 times.