Why I got out of bed yesterday, I have no clue! I had only got about 4.5 hours of sleep – anything less than 8 hours of sleep for me is pushing it. I decided to go for it anyways and plugged along my way to work. I ate two hard boiled eggs on my way.
When I got to work, I have NO CLUE WHY but I found my hand in the chocolate bowl. Damn darnity damn. In the past two years I’ve never eaten chocolate that early before. By the time it was 10am, I had eating about 500 calories.
But I rebounded and survived, ending my work day with about 1300. I mentally felt better, had got my water intake it and left work to head to the gym. But on my way home, I got a headache. Like a headache I used to get earlier last summer. I stopped at the bank and by the time I got back to my car, I just wanted to shut my eyes.
So I bypassed the gym and came home. Instead of just going to bed, I began to self-medicate by eating. I ate about 600 calories which doesn’t bother me as much as the fact that I knew I was eating out of emotion, not because I was hungry. I finally just forced myself to go lay down at 8:45pm. I blame it on the lack of sleep.
I am not upset about the AMOUNT of calories I ate today but because most of it was eaten in binge-like manner purely based out of emotion. That is what bothers me.
But today…today is going to be a better day. I am in control.
A little over a year ago, we got an email from my mom which went something like this…
”The laptop is acting up again. I don’t know what’s wrong with it. Windows keeping opening up everywhere and I can’t shut them. They are windows with pictures of women on them. I try to close them but they keep opening up.
Your dad said it had something to do with the cookies on the computer and that I should clean them off. I don’t know what he’s talking about, I never ate cookies by the computer. I had toast this morning, but I was careful not to get any toast crumbs on the keyboard.”
P.S. Stay tuned for a giveaway on Friday!
