All this week AND next week I’m working 10am – 3pm. Nice hours huh?! Instead of taking entire days off, just to sit home and do nothing, I decided to just go in late and leave early. I love this time of year! We got some snow over the weekend and are expecting another snow storm on Wednesday – I can’t wait!
The excess chocolate.Wednesday & Thursday of last week, I had hard time sleeping. I tossed and turned a lot. When I woke up on Friday, I had only gotten 4-5 hours of sleep per night for the previous 3 days and was starting to feel the effects. Emotionally, I was spent – I missed my mom and was an emotional wreck.
I got in my car on Friday and realized I didn’t have enough gas to get to work – ack, I hate that! Then, I tasted my coffee and it was horrible! (Sometimes I make it just fine, other days – bleck!) As I went to put my coffee down, I dropped it and it spilled all over the passenger seat & window. (Luckily not on me.)
I cried a bit and then collected my composure and went into work. When I got to my desk, I found a gift and a card.
So nice of my co-worker, right? Well guess what I did? As my computer booted up, I unwrapped one and told myself
I ate two of them, telling myself I deserved it after the morning I had. And then, a tiny tiny voice in my head screamed:
And I quickly closed the bag and put the chocolate in my bag. (Outta site, outta mind!) Why…just because I had a bad day, would I “deserve” to eat mindless calories. Little pieces of crap chocolate that wouldn’t do anything, let alone make me feel better. Eating those chocolates wouldn’t bring my mom back. They wouldn’t make the coffee taste better. The wouldn’t make my day any happier.
I finished the rest of the day without eating the chocolate. I did however eat more then my fair share during the Holiday work party luncheon but stayed away from the chocolate. That evening, I went bowling with a friend and had a glass of wine. It was nice to get out and be with others – I calmed down and by Saturday I was feeling better.
My wish for today: I wish you a tiny voice in your head that screams loud when your eating something you probably could live without.
See ya’ll tomorrow!
P.S. Did you see the giveaway from yesterday? Click here.
