Here’s the situation…
Yesterday afternoon, we had a meeting that was cancelled. We had snacks that were ordered and it was too close to the meeting to cancel the snacks so guess where the snacks went?
On my desk. I tried to scream but no words came out.
Instead, I filled a up a cup of popcorn.
And then I cut a mega brownie in 1/4 and had a piece.
Over the course of the next hour, I proceeded
to fill my cup up with popcorn 5 more
times. And I finished off the brownie and
started to nibble on another.
Why? Who the flippin’ A knows!!!!!!
And then, when my stomach started actually
digest the food, my tummy started to get mad.
I leaned back in my chair and
made a Santa Clause tummy.
Twas a horrible tummy ache!
why on earth would I do that to myself? Why couldn’t I just stop and do my work? What is it that makes me (or us?) continue to eat just because of the taste instead of food for fuel?
I thought…
And considered.
And contemplated.
And you want to know what I came up with? I have a disordered way of eating. Not an eating disorder in an “anorexia” or “bulimia” kinda way, but still very disordered. And, I’m going to go out on a dangerous limb here and say that I think most of us do.
There are some people who when it comes to eating, just don’t have an issue. They eat when they are hungry, stop when they are full even if that means leaving something on their plate or (God forbid) throwing food away. There are some people who look at people like me and say “can’t you just stop eating?”
And then there are people like me. Who obsess over what’s on everyone elses plate (see yesterday’s post). People like me who have to fight to be healthy, fight to limit myself, kick and scream my way to being a healthy weight.
conclusion. The actual definition of obesity is
disordered eating. Being obese means you
eat more than your body needs to live on.
I may not be obese physically anymore, because I focused my energies and thoughts on counting calories and activity minutes. But mentally, after reading your comments yesterday and my actions today, I do think I have a lot of work mentally to do.
I may be at a healthy weight physically but now its time to push through the mental aspect of being healthy.
How? eh, I don’t even know!!!!!!
Love ya’ll and apprecaite all your comments, thoughts & opinions yesterday!
