Hello bloggers! Happy Monday! I hope you had a nice [long] weekend! I did, but of course, it just FLEW by! Why is it that the long ones always seems to fly by the fastest?? Urg, no fair!
Either way, I’m back to the grind today. First FULL week at my new job. I’m nervous, but excited. I’ll be on my own this week, after a little “re-fresher training” with Taryn. I sure hope I didn’t forget everything I learned last week over the long weekend! I don’t think I did, but we shall see soon!
So, point of this post today… maintaining. Is it a good thing, or a bad thing…? Or maybe it’s neither. Maybe “it is what it is”…?
I want to talk about maintaining because that’s what I’ve been doing lately. For me, it’s neither a good thing or a bad thing. It just… IS what’s happening right now. I suppose yes, it’s “more” of a bad thing than a good thing since I’m obviously not anywhere near maintain weight yet. But for me, for right now, I kind of consider it a victory. I hope that doesn’t sound bad, let me explain. Yes, I AM still trying to lose weight. But I know myself and normally, a year ago, I would have GAINED several pounds by now… being that my birthday just passed, Thanksgiving just passed, Christmas is upon us… I would have been UP a few to several pounds. Right now, I’m maintaining about 2 pounds above the lowest weight I’ve hit. If you’re following me, that’s around 217 pounds. No, I don’t like that number, YES I want that number to be lower. But I know the reality. And the reality is, I’m not working my plan like I should be. I am not being diligent about tracking my calories nor am I being diligent about getting in my gym time. I know this is why I’m not losing. Of course, I’m not happy with myself about this, but I’m happier than I would be had I been gaining all along.
I hate to use the holidays as a crutch, but for now, yes, I think I will be happy maintaining. Gaining, NO… maintaining, eh, content. I am trying to get myself back in control. I’ve let the control slip to my cravings and that, I am not okay with. I want to be in control in this journey. Losing control is how I got here in the first place.
Don’t get me wrong, I want to be losing weight. And everyday is a work in progress for me. I will continue each day to make better decisions and to keep myself in check with my calories. It’s just that, honestly, knowing myself, I KNOW last year, if I were in this same situation, I would have gained weight by now… lots more than a pound or 2. So, I’m happier with where I am now, compared to where I was a year ago.
Tell me what you think… have you ever been in a similar situation? Any words of wisdom or advice? I’m always open to your comments and such, and really, I appreciate them, so much.
I hope you all have a fabulous Monday. And let’s all do one thing, one EASY thing… make today a good day… okay? 
I will be.
xoxo
Lindsay
