Happy Friday! I’ll tell you right now, this will probably be short and sweet. Not much to say today… I guess.
Let’s start with my weigh in, shall we…? Okay! I gained. I said I would, and I did. BUT I instead of the 2(+) pounds I was SURE I was going to gain, I only gained 1.2. Not great, it is a gain after all, but it’s not terrible. AND I just realized (not sure how I just realized this!) but next week I will get my… friend. You know the one I’m talking about. Well, like I had said in the past, I ALWAYS gain the week before I get it. It has always been like since I’ve been monitoring my weight… since like 2007. So, that makes me feel a little less bad about my gain. And honestly, being honest with myself earlier this week and saying, “well, ya know what, you screwed up. You ate a bunch of crap that you shouldn’t have… prepare for a gain” – I think that really did help. Because I was expecting a gain and I was expecting a larger gain so when I was “only” up 1.2 – I was actually kind of happy. So, in total, I’m only down 6 pounds, but I’m going to work hard to get this 1.2 and some (hopefully!) off by next week. I know my lack of exercise didn’t help to contribute to my efforts this week either. And I love how Jen put it – “Oh well, another day, another chance to try again.” I so completely agree.
On a not-weight-loss-related-topic… we got an update about my aunt’s cancer. It’s not good news. She went in for further testing and they see masses… cancer… on her liver as well as in between her breasts, in addition to what they already saw on her left ovary. She’s not doing well. My uncle says that she is a mess. Completely understandable. I don’t know much more information since even this little information was from my mom, who got it from my grandma, who got it from my uncle. My mom was asking my grandma all of these questions, like, what’s next? Is there anymore cancer elsewhere? Why did a lump form near her throat? Etc – but my grandma didn’t ask my uncle any of those things… my mom was frustrated with my grandma because she wants to know what’s going on, but she doesn’t want to call my aunt to get the info since she’s not handling it well… so my mom is going to go over to their house tonight or tomorrow and see if she can go with Mary to her doctors appointment on Monday. It’s just horrible, guys. I hurt, my heart hurts. Not only for myself being scared, but for my cousins, I can’t imagine what they’re going through – they lost an aunt to breast cancer – I can’t imagine how scared they are. As well as my grandma – my grandpa died of cancer in 1994 and I’m sure she’s thinking the worst case scenario. My mom and my uncle – how this can be happening to their sister. She’s the youngest one of the three of them – how can this be happening? It’s scary. Terrifying really. How in a world with the technology we have, the brilliant doctors and scientists and people that we have – WHY are people still thinking they’re faced with a death sentence when diagnosed with cancer? Why?? Keep the prayers comin‘ guys. We can never have too many.
xoxo
Lindsay
PS – sorry for having NO pictures for you guys lately. I’ll try harder.
