I am numb

I am numb.
I am speechless beyond comprehension.
I am surrounded by family and loved ones yet feel nothing.
I am out of breath but breathing so hard.
I cannot begin to cry the tears deserved.
Memories are the only thing left yet they aren’t enough.
I will never understand.
I will never forget.
I will never stop crying.
I love you mom. I love you.

A little over twelve hours ago, my live was shattered. I lost my best friend, my confidant – I lost my pillar of strength, hope & courage. Forever gone is my coach, my cheerleader, my instructor. I lost my example of faithful, unconditional love, I lost my mom.

A little over twelve hours ago, my mom was hit by a car while on a walk and died on the way to the hospital. There were no goodbye’s. Please keep our family in your thoughts an prayers. Most importantly, please keep my father, who lost his best friend of 32 years in your prayers.


I love you mom!


  1. Wow, I just read your “I am numb” I’m so sorry for your loss. What a horrible thing to happen, to think her sweet grandchild was with her. I’m sure the pain never goes away. I know we don’t know one another, but I send you BIG hugs..
    I came across your blog looking for inspiration to help me lose weight, it’s fabulous!! Keep up the good work!!! I’m looking forward to reading your journey. Btw you are very pretty!! ( sometimes it’s just nice to hear it, if even from a total stranger )

    Thanks for your blog….

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  3. Awwmm :( A few weeks back I was driving home from work at 6 am and I saw another car, driving about 60 mph, plow into a guy riding his bike. I hear of this sort of stuff happening so often, I rarely need to remind myself to be super careful when walking – I don’t take it for granted that others will be driving safely – and, of course, accidents will always happen. I’m sorry x


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