I am numb.
I am speechless beyond comprehension.
I am surrounded by family and loved ones yet feel nothing.
I am out of breath but breathing so hard.
I cannot begin to cry the tears deserved.
Memories are the only thing left yet they aren’t enough.
I will never understand.
I will never forget.
I will never stop crying.
I love you mom. I love you.
A little over twelve hours ago, my live was shattered. I lost my best friend, my confidant – I lost my pillar of strength, hope & courage. Forever gone is my coach, my cheerleader, my instructor. I lost my example of faithful, unconditional love, I lost my mom.
A little over twelve hours ago, my mom was hit by a car while on a walk and died on the way to the hospital. There were no goodbye’s. Please keep our family in your thoughts an prayers. Most importantly, please keep my father, who lost his best friend of 32 years in your prayers.
I love you mom!
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Delurking… I’ve been reading your blog for some time now… My condolences to you and your family… will be keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.
My condolences to you and your family. I have enjoyed reading your blog for sometime now and I just want you to know that you and your family will be in my prayers. Thank you for all that you do. I am so sorry…
I have chills. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Hi…I am so sorry for your loss. Both of my parents are gone and I understand the knawing grief you are experiencing. It takes time to get back to functioning normally again. I know you are a deep caring person just like your mother and you will be there for someone else someday. But right now take care of you the way your mother would want you to do. I will keep your website on my favorites. Keep us posted on how you are doing.
Nan
I stumbled upon your blog through another blog that I follow…and I wanted to share something with you…Last year on October 4th, I was coming back from a trip to texas…I was at the airport getting ready to board the plane when my husband answered his phone…it was my uncle calling him to find out where we were and how soon we would be home. He asked why, and then my uncle told him that my mom was in the hospital (they didnt know what was wrong..just that her heart had stopped and she couldnt breathe) , and she had coded three times, and that we needed to get there soon, but we were still in texas…almost 9 hours away from being home. I fell on my knees in that airport and prayed harder than ive ever prayed before..that my mom would be ok, and that she would hold on till i got there. We took off from texas at 3:00 and at 3:30 my mom, my best friend, died. When we landed in Denver for our lay over, I called to check in and my aunt answered and told me that my mom was gone. I dont remember anything after that, I was trapped on a plane, and they just told me my mom had died. It was the most horrible moment of my life. When I got the airport in my town, some of my family was there to meet me, and i found out that my mom had died of the swine flu, she had it for 24 hours total, and they didnt know how to treat it. Niether my dad or myself, neither of us got to say goodbye, no i love yous..no nothing.
That was in ocotober, and I have gained almost 60 pounds since then. I feel empty, and hurt, and I miss my mom, so very very much. I never ever thought that at 28 I would lose someone so important to me.
I know that was long, but I wanted to let you know that reading your blog has inspired me…and that I am praying for you, and your heart.
I read the article on you in Shape magazine today as I pounded out some miles on the treadmill. I remember reading about your mom last year and being horrified! I am so sorry that you and your family have lost.
I lost a brother to a hit/run accident when he was 12 years back in 1988. I know the pain you have felt this last year as you cope with your last. I hope each year there are less tears from sorrow and more from joyful memories.
I am so sorry to hear about your tragedy. My prayers are with you and your family. Life is so short and fragile.
I too just “stumbled” on your blog from someplace else.
I am a prior young girl(!), your loss resonates.
So much I wish I could share with my mom.
With such a loss, the world seems lonelier.
Condolences on your loss and sorrow.
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