When I started this blog, I did so because I wanted to connect with more people who understood my eating & workout struggles. To share our frustrations and successes. To come together with those who way deep down, those who truly understood my emotions and feelings even when there were no words in the human language to describe them. This blog has been everything I was looking for.
This morning I woke up and made coffee. Carlos is working a 1/2 day so he left and I found myself sitting here drinking coffee and listening to the birds outside. As I think about everything that has happened over the past 6 days, I am amazed at how much all of you have been a part of it. Whether you have surrounded me to give hugs or whether you have sent E-hugs, I have felt them all.
Power of Community
The power of community is amazing. Community helped me during my struggles with weight loss. Community helped me the last 6 days as I struggled to figure out what was happening to me. And now, community helps me as I pick up the pieces both of my emotional state of mind and as I pick up the pieces on my healthiness habits.
If there is anything I can tell you about how I lost my weight, it was by relying on community. When I was feeling stressed or ready to give up, so many of you instinctly rallied around me. When I shared a victory, you were right there to celebrate with me. That truly is how we continue through life. By supporting each other, by rallying around each other – good or bad. If there is anything I can tell you about how I have made it these past few days, it is by relying on community. We need to do that more.
And, if you won’t listen to me, listen to my mom. Here is one of the last comments my mom left on the blog:
“Now as we travel the road of life, we need to pick up others along the way as their loads may be too heavy to carry.”
Distraction
A couple of weeks ago, Carlos and I bought tickets to go see KOOZA which is a Cirque du Soleil type show. The show is tonight. We decided this morning that we would go. I think it will be a good way to zone out and just take in visual beauty.
I really don’t feel comfortable being alone right now but at the same time, I think its good for me. I have been surrounded by so many amazing, wonderful people these past few days but it leaves little time to deal with all the mumbled thoughts & emotions in my head. I’m going to go to Lake Calhoun for a run now, some fresh air will do me good. A gym feels so restrictive right now – I just want to run and see myself getting somewhere.
I’ll be back tomorrow because I am so sure my mom would hate to know I layed low on blogging during all of this. But I just want to say again, from the bottom of my heart thank you thank you thank you so much for your continued support and love. I never doubted you but you have gone so far beyond what I ever thought a community could do in supporting our family.
Love you all!
