This week has been an amazing week full of emotions for me. I was fully prepared to post last Monday admitting defeat and declaring that I would not make it to my goal by tomorrow.
2.6 lbs stood in my way. I was so close, but with 5 days left, I began to doubt myself. I admit, I had crazy thoughts. I considered the option of taking off work to spend 7-8 hours a day in the gym. I considered drinking cayenne pepper & lemon water for 5 days. I considered deleting the blog & running away. Crazy thoughts I tell ya, they were running wild!
But…deep down, I knew I had to do this the good old-fashioned hard way. The same way the first 97.4 lbs came off: through being patient & really allowing my body to let go of the pounds when it was ready. I knew I could not force my body to do it.
I am writing this in response to a comment I received earlier, and I really appreciate that person saying what he or she feels. Just as comments are open, I now get the chance to respond. I am actually very grateful that I get a chance to say this because it is a perfect way to close the week.
This week, I have not given into crazy thoughts of spending outrageous hours in the gym. If you go back to each and every post, I have spent no more then an hour in the gym every day this week — that, for me, is reasonable.
This week, I have eaten fruits & veggies, meat and dairy. I have eaten fiber bars and ice cream. I have eaten scrambled eggs, chicken, wheat thins, steak, apples, bananas, tuna, squash, the list goes on. These are things I normally eat. I ended each day knowing I ate enough to fuel my body.
Starting yesterday, I did make a conscious effort to scale back on carbs & sodium because I know I am a sucker for both. (Remember my post about licking a salt block? YUM!) I did not eliminate either. I have always been a firm believer in that whatever we do, we have to do for life. If needed, I could maintain both levels of carbs & sodium for life because there still is plenty in my diet.
No matter what happens tomorrow with the scale, I am proud of where I am and how I got here. More importantly, I am proud of the fact that I did not give into marketing ploys or crazy thoughts in my head and really truly allowed myself to be vulnerable. To fail and struggle, to learn how to fall down and to learn how to pick myself back up time and time again. I am beyond speechless at what I have learned about myself and who I am. More importantly, I am now so much more aware of what I have yet to learn, and I look forward to what’s next.
So…on that note, although I will weigh in tomorrow morning, I do not intend on posting an update. You see, tomorrow is a special day in my life; therefore, I plan on surrounding myself with Carlos and my family to concentrate on things more important in my life then the number on the scale.
Monday, I have a HUGE surprise for you that may or may not include a video. AND…there will a Holey Donuts winner drawing!
(Sorry that there are no images in this midday update. I’ll explain why later.)
