Food Focus…?

I feel like my plan really isn’t a plan at all… probably because it’s not. I need to finalize this more, set something in stone. I’m really nervous to calorie count because I feel like if I don’t know how many calories there are before I put it in my mouth, I’ll just say “F it, I’m just going to eat it”. I’m also nervous about getting REALLY obsessed with food and counting again. I did Weight Watchers (a couple of times) and there would be times I would be OBSESSED with points. Like, I felt crazy. All I thought about was food and how many points this had and how many points that had. It really consumed my life for a while and I don’t want that. I want something I can do forever and having those crazy obsessive spells isn’t cool. It drove me nuts.

I’ve considered going back to WW – not officially, I can’t afford it right now. Just do it on my own. I’m trying to buy a house at the moment, so I’m trying to shave expenses where I can. Plus, I joined the summer membership at the Y and so after Labor Day, I will have to pay monthly for the membership and it’s about $60 a month. So, if I had to choose WW or the gym, I choose the gym. I can’t afford $100 a month right now, so it has to be one or the other. I have the tools to do WW on my own if I choose to. It will be hard because the best part about WW for me was the accountability, but I hope I can keep myself accountable by keeping up with this blog. It’s not helping so far since I’m not sure if ANYONE reads this or not.

So, obviously I am sucking at the food part right now, hoping to make some serious changes to that in the NEAR future aka starting RIGHT NOW! But the activity has been going really well. I put in 60 minutes at the gym yesterday, I did a little BodyPump. My arms are feeling it today… but not too bad. My LEGS are sore. I never rest my legs. I really should. But in my Kettlebell class we do squats and lunges like they’re going out of style and then in BodyPump we do a bunch too. So, I think it’s safe to say, my legs will be kick ass… or so I hope! I won’t get in much gym time this weekend because I’m going out of town. But I’ll be sure to keep my body moving… I promise!

Let’s talk about life… take a little break from the crazy-ness of weight loss. It’s the 4th this weekend! Woo hoo! Nice loooooong weekend from work. We are closed tomorrow and I decided to take Monday off. I’m soooo looking forward to a little relaxing. My boyfriend and I are going camping this weekend. We’re going to Wisconsin Dells to camp and go to water parks. I’m definitely looking forward to it! I haven’t been to the Dells since I was really little, I don’t even remember going. I just remember the stories my grandparents and my sister tell me. Sounds like I had a good time. Haha So, that should be fun.

Here is where we’re going, it’s called Noah’s Ark Water Park…

Sorry for the crappy quality picture, I just wanted to give you an idea. I’m looking forward to it. Not so much looking forward to the swim suit part of it… but I guess you gotta do what you gotta do.