Time to Relax

This week has been an amazing week full of emotions for me. I was fully prepared to post last Monday admitting defeat and declaring that I would not make it to my goal by tomorrow.

2.6 lbs stood in my way. I was so close, but with 5 days left, I began to doubt myself. I admit, I had crazy thoughts. I considered the option of taking off work to spend 7-8 hours a day in the gym. I considered drinking cayenne pepper & lemon water for 5 days. I considered deleting the blog & running away. Crazy thoughts I tell ya, they were running wild!

But…deep down, I knew I had to do this the good old-fashioned hard way. The same way the first 97.4 lbs came off: through being patient & really allowing my body to let go of the pounds when it was ready. I knew I could not force my body to do it.

I am writing this in response to a comment I received earlier, and I really appreciate that person saying what he or she feels. Just as comments are open, I now get the chance to respond. I am actually very grateful that I get a chance to say this because it is a perfect way to close the week.

This week, I have not given into crazy thoughts of spending outrageous hours in the gym. If you go back to each and every post, I have spent no more then an hour in the gym every day this week — that, for me, is reasonable.

This week, I have eaten fruits & veggies, meat and dairy. I have eaten fiber bars and ice cream. I have eaten scrambled eggs, chicken, wheat thins, steak, apples, bananas, tuna, squash, the list goes on. These are things I normally eat. I ended each day knowing I ate enough to fuel my body.

Starting yesterday, I did make a conscious effort to scale back on carbs & sodium because I know I am a sucker for both. (Remember my post about licking a salt block? YUM!) I did not eliminate either. I have always been a firm believer in that whatever we do, we have to do for life. If needed, I could maintain both levels of carbs & sodium for life because there still is plenty in my diet.

No matter what happens tomorrow with the scale, I am proud of where I am and how I got here. More importantly, I am proud of the fact that I did not give into marketing ploys or crazy thoughts in my head and really truly allowed myself to be vulnerable. To fail and struggle, to learn how to fall down and to learn how to pick myself back up time and time again. I am beyond speechless at what I have learned about myself and who I am. More importantly, I am now so much more aware of what I have yet to learn, and I look forward to what’s next.

So…on that note, although I will weigh in tomorrow morning, I do not intend on posting an update. You see, tomorrow is a special day in my life; therefore, I plan on surrounding myself with Carlos and my family to concentrate on things more important in my life then the number on the scale.

Monday, I have a HUGE surprise for you that may or may not include a video. AND…there will a Holey Donuts winner drawing!

(Sorry that there are no images in this midday update. I’ll explain why later.)

TGIF!

Ugh, you guys – I’m really tired today. I even went to bed early last night, dunno what’s up with me! Actually, I do… my evil friend. Ah well, she’ll be gone soon. I just realized – I talk about her on here WAY too much! Enough of that, no one needs to know and no one cares! Haha

So, yesterday I had a pretty good day at work with my eats. I went home and ate dinner, a warmed up enchilada – because I just love them THAT much. :) And then I fell asleep for a while waiting for Adam to get home from work. Well, him and I got into a little argument and a little while later he was walking out the door – neither of us said anything… we’re a little stubborn! Anyways, about 10 minutes later I hear him come back – he went to DQ and got us each an ice cream cone… I guess that’s his version of an olive branch. Haha So, I ate it. Yep, I did. And, it was delish. Haha Life happens, I’m not going to completely cut things out of my life. It’s just not going to happen. He did something nice for me, I wasn’t going to say, “thanks, but NO thanks, I’m trying to lose weight.” He knows I am, so maybe it wasn’t the wisest choice on his end, but I appreciated it and ENJOYED it none the less. :)

So, it’s Friday – do you know what that mean…? It means I WEIGHED IN this morning! And guess what…? That ice cream cone (or donut from yesterday, eck!) DIDN’T kill me! I was down 1 pound this morning, so WOO HOO! I’m pleased – since I was having a hell of a time this week. But hey, what did I tell ya, gain last week, lose this week. I don’t know why that happens, but during this time of the month (dammit, I said I would stop mentioning that! Opps!) that always happens. 1 pound makes me happy. At least I’m going in the right direction. You can check out my stats over there (<----). I’m only down 3 pounds total… but that’s okay with me. It’s a journey. There really is no end to this… this is something that had to last for life… so there is no rush getting to “the end” since there is no end. Persistence, consistency, I’ll get there, eventually.

Oh! I need to mention this! There is this great give away that Aubrey is doing. Check it out HERE… especially if you love PINK! Thanks Aubrey for the great give away and good luck to everyone who enters! :)

Now, my eats for today:
Breakfast:
- banana
- peach
- yogurt

I was HUNGRY this morning, and this was really yummy. :)

Lunch:
- SmartOne – Creamy Rigatoni with Broccoli & Chicken

Not bad for a microwave meal. Pretty good actually. :)

Dinner:
- Not sure yet what will be for dinner… Adam and I are planning on going out – I’m craving Mexican… probably not the best, but oh so delicious! We’ll see what we decide.
I’m also meeting up with a friend tonight for a couple of drinks… so eck, maybe not be a good night for eating. I’ll try to behave myself!

Snack:
- Apple – I always munch on one on the drive home from work

Water:
- Ooohhh! I’m actually doing good with my H2O today! I’ve been peeing like a man woman, sorry! But that just happens! ;) I think I’m at about 70 ounces. Will probably drink another 34 before I leave work/while I drive home. So, not bad!

I’ve committed to getting in my water (at least 8, 8oz glasses) everyday. I can do that! Baby steps…

Anywho… I’m going to get my butt back to work. I hope you all have a nice evening!

Oh – before I go, you guys should check out Christy, my new wonderful, amazingly helpful follower! Thanks for checking me out Christy. :)

xoxo
Lindsay

Food for Thought: Do you reward yourself for a job well done…? If so, what are your favorite NON-food related rewards? :)

Time to Relax

This week has been an amazing week full of emotions for me. I was fully prepared to post last Monday admitting defeat and declaring that I would not make it to my goal by tomorrow.

2.6 lbs stood in my way. I was so close, but with 5 days left, I began to doubt myself. I admit, I had crazy thoughts. I considered the option of taking off work to spend 7-8 hours a day in the gym. I considered drinking cayenne pepper & lemon water for 5 days. I considered deleting the blog & running away. Crazy thoughts I tell ya, they were running wild!

But…deep down, I knew I had to do this the good old-fashioned hard way. The same way the first 97.4 lbs came off: through being patient & really allowing my body to let go of the pounds when it was ready. I knew I could not force my body to do it.

I am writing this in response to a comment I received earlier, and I really appreciate that person saying what he or she feels. Just as comments are open, I now get the chance to respond. I am actually very grateful that I get a chance to say this because it is a perfect way to close the week.

This week, I have not given into crazy thoughts of spending outrageous hours in the gym. If you go back to each and every post, I have spent no more then an hour in the gym every day this week — that, for me, is reasonable.

This week, I have eaten fruits & veggies, meat and dairy. I have eaten fiber bars and ice cream. I have eaten scrambled eggs, chicken, wheat thins, steak, apples, bananas, tuna, squash, the list goes on. These are things I normally eat. I ended each day knowing I ate enough to fuel my body.

Starting yesterday, I did make a conscious effort to scale back on carbs & sodium because I know I am a sucker for both. (Remember my post about licking a salt block? YUM!) I did not eliminate either. I have always been a firm believer in that whatever we do, we have to do for life. If needed, I could maintain both levels of carbs & sodium for life because there still is plenty in my diet.

No matter what happens tomorrow with the scale, I am proud of where I am and how I got here. More importantly, I am proud of the fact that I did not give into marketing ploys or crazy thoughts in my head and really truly allowed myself to be vulnerable. To fail and struggle, to learn how to fall down and to learn how to pick myself back up time and time again. I am beyond speechless at what I have learned about myself and who I am. More importantly, I am now so much more aware of what I have yet to learn, and I look forward to what’s next.

So…on that note, although I will weigh in tomorrow morning, I do not intend on posting an update. You see, tomorrow is a special day in my life; therefore, I plan on surrounding myself with Carlos and my family to concentrate on things more important in my life then the number on the scale.

Monday, I have a HUGE surprise for you that may or may not include a video. AND…there will a Holey Donuts winner drawing!

(Sorry that there are no images in this midday update. I’ll explain why later.)

It’s on like Donkey Kong

I suppose I should have used that image a couple of days ago. I have 24 hours left until my final weigh in. I would like to gorge on some chips & salsa, mac & cheese, wheat thins & hummus, some hot & sour soup, ham & cheese omelet, juicy cheeseburger & fries, and a couple slices of pizza washed down with a big ‘ol mug of hazelnut coffee and a nice glass of wine! But guess what? Whether or not I hit my goal, I can’t do that. Nope, being healthy is for life. I still have to maintain my habits, be aware of the foods I’m eating & workout. I’m a lifer.
Yesterday’s Recap

Workout: Made it to the gym last night. 30 minutes on elliptical and 20 minutes on bike. Sweat a bazillion gallons worth.

Food: Did not add any salt or season’s to my food yesterday. I’m going to be honest with you, I ate a lot of scrambled eggs & tuna. I also had fruit & a fiber bar. Refuse to just starve the pounds off…

Weight: oh – um, sorry. I’m going to add a little element of suspense. Yesterday I was at 141.6lbs. That means 1.6lbs to go to hit my goal. That’s a lot in a short amount of time. Pray for my sanity!

Mood: I feel like tomorrow is Christmas morning… like this huge anticipation has been built up and tomorrow is D-Day. Normally I have longer posts. Posts with a little more meat, a little more oommph to them. I have been really laying back on carb consumption for 2 days now and let me be honest, it’s draining all my energy. I will NOT do this longer then Saturday. Why do it now you ask? Well,

It’s On Like Donkey Kong!
Side Note: I have never recommended restricting or cutting anything out of my (and your) life to lose weight. I still don’t. I am completely aware that by doing so, I am highly likely to gain a pound back the moment I eat a carb on Saturday after weigh in. I’ll talk more about this next week…let me just get through today & tomorrow okay?

CONTEST WINNER: Congratulations to Actual Scale! Please email me your address at jen@priorfatgirl.com

For the rest of you, please don’t be discouraged – buy the EatingWell cookbook! There were so many healthy cookbooks that everyone mentioned, tons to choose from. Click here to scroll through the comments and get recommendations from other readers! If you don’t want to buy them, there are a lot of them available at your local library!!!

I’ll be back this afternoon to give you a final update! Until then, holla!