Surprise mid-day post, I know. (Scroll down to 2nd post for Saturday recap & pictures) It’s 12:45pm. Just got back from lunch with co-workers. Yep, I waved goodbye to my frozen.meal.a.friend and entered the shiney room called the Cafeteria.
I made a salad. Quite extensive one actually. Lots of green stuff, chicken, chick pea’s, black olives, raisins & a small small scoop of sunflower seeds. No dressing. $8.00 worth of salad.
Ate it all.
Came back to my desk & had a piece of 100 calorie chocolate. Then a banana. Am at an estimated 760 calories for the day. Did not work out today.
And now, I am starving. Not just for a frozen meal. I WANT TO EAT.
Junk food. Like the good ‘ol days. Eat until my tummy is full. oohh…I so crave that full feeling. That feeling of looking at the yummy goodness created by the devil himself, tempting me and giving in. Allowing myself to indulge.
The salty stuff. Greasy. Or the so heavenly sweet stuff. Visions are dancing in my head.
I am obsessed. Right now. And it’s only 1/2 way through the day.
Tonight, dinner with another couple at Tam Tam’s African Restaurant – no low cal options there, so I cannot do this. I must fight the temptation. Someone, please – throw me a life jacket.
After 1.5 years, why has this not gotten easier?
P.S. yes my friends, I’m quite aware that next week is that “time of month.” Though the visit never really comes, the hormons still like to mess with me.