Continued from previous post…
My hands began to shake and I got chills yet could feel myself sweating. I couldn’t breath. I wanted to curl up in the corner of the dressing room. I wanted to rip the shorts off and put my jeans back on. I wanted to tell Carlos I couldn’t do this and to take me home. I wanted to cry. I grabbed my phone and sent a text to my sister Alicia.
I told her “I am in tjhr dressing room and wearing shorts an dmy heard ois beating too fast” (notice my inability to spell & text at that moment!).
She told me to take a deep breath and just open the door.
I had to make a decision…
And so I threw open the door and walked out…and I didn’t die. I know you guys wanna see the outfits, so here they are – but make sure to read until the end ok? Because there is a moral to this story…
P.S. a contest starts tomorrow, so check back – ya’ll are gonna want this, although I’m totally tempted to keep it for myself
I didn’t get this far by backing down. I didn’t bust my arse in the gym to NOT be able to wear shorts.
This whole mental aspect of loosing weight. It’s not just about losing pounds of fat. There is a psychological side to it too. We cannot expect to just “get it” and just “accept it” or just “be happy” because there is so much more that has led up to this point.
BUT…when faced with something scary, no matter how much we don’t wanna do it, we just need to throw open the door and walk through.
What’s the worst that can happen?
I don’t share the pictures with you because I want to “show off” but because it took a lot mentally to put those clothes on and walk out of that dressing room. This is about so much more than how I look in those clothes, this is about accomplishing something I haven’t been comfortable doing and haven’t allowed myself to do in decades. That, now that, is an accomplishment!
I would much rather you share with me in my excitement for facing my fears then how I look in the clothes (although the clothes are cute, if I do say so myself!)
Reminder – really awesome give away tomorrow. I hope ya’ll oversleep so I can claim to be the winner myself.